Hi there! What’s shakin’? I’m just relaxing on the couch, watching daytime television & downloading Eminem’s new album before I head out for a run on this beautiful day (tough life, I know). Figured I’d get a little writing done on here in the mean time since I haven’t been doing half as much as I told myself I would. It’s funny how too much free time and no free time at all can both result in too little writing. At least I’ve figured out that it would be pretty difficult for me to write a book, or pretty much anything, in entirety without pressure or motivation from someone or something other than my self. What it comes down to is that it’s nearly impossible for me to do any real, substantial writing simply for the sake of doing it.
…I think that was a bit of a confession! Am I still allowed to consider myself a writer? Aren’t writers supposed to write, like, a lot? And by writing, I mean real writing, like thoughts and prose that are raw, yet still brilliant. Basically, the kind of writing I don’t do. The writer Thomas Mann said, “A writer is a person for whom writing is more difficult than it is for other people.” So I’m going to trust him on that and say yes, I’m a writer. I just happen to be the kind of writer who conserves talent for special occasions. Or at least that’s what I’ll tell myself.
On a better note, I’ve started working on my online portfolio. Check it out: http://jstrufant.wordpress.com. There’s still a lot to be added/deleted/created/destroyed, but it’s definitely a start, and I have a little something besides a tan to show for my many hours off a week. The plan is to step it up a notch or two in July, and to do lots of writing, reading, and lesson planning to make for a less stressful fall semester. I’m babysitting three little hooligans down the Cape for the second and third week in July, which I think will be good for me all around. One, it will give me lots of time to read on the beach and to get some work done at night without any temptations. Two, I’ll get some practice playing Mommy and being a responsible adult who is in charge of not only her self, but of three other human beings (scary thought, huh?). And three, I’ll make some money. No complaints there!
It’s pretty nuts that it’s almost July, though. It feels like it been months since I was in Europe, but at the same time I don’t know where the month of June went. It’s kind of discouraging and stirring at the same time; I know time is flying and I should get out and do all the things I planned to while I have the time to do them, yet I know I’ll spend many more summer mornings watching Maury as I did today. I swear I need a life coach. It’s not even the lack of writing, reading, and productivity that bothers me the most, it’s the lack of quality time with people I love and miss. I could make a list of at least 25 people who are really important to me, yet I haven’t seen in months. I always say to myself, “Jess, instead of facebook creeping on this person, why don’t you call them and make plans for once,” but I just keep on creeping. I know that we all have our own hectic lives, and not everyone still has the pleasure of an agenda-free, three-month summer vacation, but collectively, we need to make more of an effort! You know who you are.
Alright, time to get out there & enjoy the weather. I love running with new music!